what to name our bump?

so lately we've been thinking hard about baby names.
i mean seriously this little bump needs a name.
i'm tired of calling it "zy." (which is short for zygote, of course.)
and i am super tired of hearing cory call it fetus.
no no zygote and fetus just wont cut it anymore.
baby bump needs a name.
anyways.
we still don't know if it is a boy or girl yet.
(i am secretly hoping for a girl)
(cory says he doesn't care, but i know he wants a boy)
if we DO infact have a girl the name picking will be easy...
we know we will name her BERLIN.
but have no idea for a middle name.
so right now its just BERLIN SOMETHING-SOMETHING BRIAN
what would be a good middle name?

and if its a boy.
ummm... we're screwed.
the best we have come up with is

HARRISON RICHARD (hehe, just for the nick name) ((this was sue's idea!))
or
CONAN OH BRIAN

no no we are just kidding we wouldn't put our child through such misery.
but it is fun to think about...
i mean we all know someone out there really named their son harrison richard aka harry dick.

it's sad that those two names are the only ones we have come up with.
clever as they are, i will not have my sons nick name be harry dick.

i really hate venting on a blog, but...



random bethel pic
see how the lake is freezing...brr

wow. i am lame.
it is a saturday night and i am blogging.
i have had two girls crying tonight over boys they've never hung out with.
i have had two boys get upset because i wouldn't take them to the basketball courts to play.
and i had one girl come back from the hospital completely high on whatever they gave her.
AND they want me to give her more of that stuff in an hour.
AND AND they want me to bring her back to the hospital at 4am for another IV.
(seriously would 7am really make that much difference?)
what happened to my pre bethel life?
i miss that life.
lately i spend my saturday nights waiting up for teens to come home before curfew.
the old me would have been out and about on a weekend.
cory and i would be at a friends for a game night,
or maybe on a date (i will never think light of dates again)
whatever we would be doing at least it we would be with friends and family.
sure. bethel has brought cory and i closer than we ever have been.
sure. bethel literally jump started our marriage in leaps and bounds financially.
sure. bethel not just helped me to grow up, but made me grow up. i am different...
 in a good way.
and i know in the end this small little year will make all the difference.
BUT it can seriously suck (pardon the language)
i am lonely.
i miss my family.
oh my goodness, understatement of the year.... I REALLY MISS MY FAMILY!
i can't wait to be home for christmas.
cory and i both agree that we need a re-charge. a re-boot session if you will.
then we can head right back to bethel and stay till april...
once april comes we'll go back to utah and have the baby.
then head back to bethel in june to finish another round of summer working for cory.
crazy plans. but hey. we're a couple who is always making plans and goals.
i'm sorry if i sound blah. i really hate venting on the blog.
i dont' know. you must have caught me on a bad night, i did just wake up from a nap.
well if you call accidentally falling asleep to grey's anatomy on hulu a nap.

thanks for reading, but another dorm girl is screaming at her boyfriend on the phone.
i need to go.

don't worry about me. i am just in a funk. i will love life again tomorrow....
i always do.

p.s. i am 18 weeks. baby is the size of a sweet potato!

green submarine is my escape.

400 followers!

seriously. wow. so flippin cool.

i can't explain enough how GS has helped me get through bethel.

when you live in a small town for a YEAR where your only close friend is your husband....

 you need an out.

and GS was my out.

i remember when i first started that blog

and thought it would be awesome if i could get 10 followers.

seriously. thank you to all my friend who spread the word.

it makes my day!

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to all those who haven't been to GS, go.

 it's a fun site to find diy projects, nothing more.

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ps. sorry for being kinda a blogging bum lately.

we are SUPER busy picking out our first home!

woot woot.

in the next 6 months, i could have a new baby, a new house, and finally live in a new state!

(sorry az friends. the home we want is in orem, utah)

(( but now i can come visit you, only a 10 hour drive away ))

p.s.s baby is now this big!

Your Baby: Week 16

Watch what you say...

tiny bones forming in baby's ears mean the little one can now pick up your voice.

Eyebrows, lashes and hair are starting to fill in, and taste buds are forming.

And, if you're interested, an ultrasound might be able to determine gender.

*click for source*

year one. {complete}

one year older.

our marriage that is.

last sunday was our anniversary.

so i thought i would give you a

a look into our wedding book.

i love this book.

i love him.

happy one year.

snow in sept.

moment of silence please... as we say goodbye to summer.
oooo and while were at it, lets just skip fall and jump right into winter!
grr. 

alaska, i no longer like you.

on a brighter note:
the baby is as big as a plum.

hello baby.

say hello to baby!
today was a great day.
we got woken up to evacuate our home, because they thought the school was on fire.
 - it wasn't.
when we went to the hospital they said that my appointment didn't exist.
 - lots of waiting.
i couldn't pee all morning because they wanted me to have a full blatter for the ultrasound.
- i swear it wouldn't have made a difference.
watched cory's face turn pale as the ultrasound tech put gel on my tummy.
- we were scared we would see two babies.
i watched the screen as one baby jiggled and danced around.
- one half little jumping bean. one half alien.
got a print of our babies first picture.
- as seen above. so flippin cute.
went to my doctor to have a follow up.
- they said i didn't have an appointment either. figures.
the doctor let cory use the little tool to find the babies heartbeat.
- i thought it was a cute way to involve the husband.
went to subway for breakfast.
- yum. the only fast food in bethel.
brought my ultrasound picture EVERYWHERE, and showed it off to EVERYONE!
- if you were in bethel i would have shown you too.
spent the day at work staring and my little zygote.
- aw. this feels so real now. i am officially excited!

11 WEEKS KNOCKED-UP!

its true.
we are expecting in april.
april 19th to be exact.
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i know we are supposed to wait till week 12 to tell.
but i'm sick of not being able to blog about it.
so week eleven sounds close enough to me.
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anyways, back to being pregnant.
freak me out. seriously.
this is not part of the plan.
but hey.
i've been with cory for almost four years.
why not mix things up a bit?
everyone is excited.
at first i was terrified. and sad.
now it's starting to sink in more and i might even be excited too.
luckily. it seems everyone and their mom is having babies right now.
or had one in the past year.
so our little zygote (that is what we call it) will have babies to play with.
also my this little lime in my tummy will be like a little brother or sister to kaylee.
crazy to think me and kaylee are 17 years apart and my kid will only be 6 years apart from her.
i will have more of an update on tuesday, that is our first ultrasound.
pray its not twins!
...seriously, PRAY
oh and for the record:
this is all cory's fault.