Sunday, November 14, 2010

i really hate venting on a blog, but...


random bethel pic
see how the lake is freezing...brr
wow. i am lame.
it is a saturday night and i am blogging.
i have had two girls crying tonight over boys they've never hung out with.
i have had two boys get upset because i wouldn't take them to the basketball courts to play.
and i had one girl come back from the hospital completely high on whatever they gave her.
AND they want me to give her more of that stuff in an hour.
AND AND they want me to bring her back to the hospital at 4am for another IV.
(seriously would 7am really make that much difference?)
what happened to my pre bethel life?
i miss that life.
lately i spend my saturday nights waiting up for teens to come home before curfew.
the old me would have been out and about on a weekend.
cory and i would be at a friends for a game night,
or maybe on a date (i will never think light of dates again)
whatever we would be doing at least it we would be with friends and family.
sure. bethel has brought cory and i closer than we ever have been.
sure. bethel literally jump started our marriage in leaps and bounds financially.
sure. bethel not just helped me to grow up, but made me grow up. i am different...
 in a good way.
and i know in the end this small little year will make all the difference.
BUT it can seriously suck (pardon the language)
i am lonely.
i miss my family.
oh my goodness, understatement of the year.... I REALLY MISS MY FAMILY!
i can't wait to be home for christmas.
cory and i both agree that we need a re-charge. a re-boot session if you will.
then we can head right back to bethel and stay till april...
once april comes we'll go back to utah and have the baby.
then head back to bethel in june to finish another round of summer working for cory.
crazy plans. but hey. we're a couple who is always making plans and goals.
i'm sorry if i sound blah. i really hate venting on the blog.
i dont' know. you must have caught me on a bad night, i did just wake up from a nap.
well if you call accidentally falling asleep to grey's anatomy on hulu a nap.

thanks for reading, but another dorm girl is screaming at her boyfriend on the phone.
i need to go.

don't worry about me. i am just in a funk. i will love life again tomorrow....
i always do.

p.s. i am 18 weeks. baby is the size of a sweet potato!

3 comments:

  1. im sorry for what you're going through. it sounds like you need to have a little bit of fun and do something you wanna do before you go crazy. itd be worth your happiness and sanity to take some me-time. especially for soon-to-come baby!

    best wishes.

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  2. Wow Ang. I can't even imagine what life is like there. But if I know anything about you its that you can make ANYTHING fun. Your amazing. Come visit me.

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  3. Are you finding out what you are having? Soon.
    YAY!

    Make a paper chain. IT always makes me feel better.

    Just a couple of weeks. You can do it!

    You are having the baby in Utah? AWESOME. I love that.

    You are going to be a pro at raising teenagers. I should come spend a couple of weeks with you to practice.

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